|Posted on May 5, 2019 at 3:55 PM|
I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and He turned to me and heard my cry. Psalm 40:1
I am currently waiting for my pain medication to kick in. Nothing on the bottle says the exact time I should expect relief but by taking it I know that relief will come. I just must wait patiently for it. In the meantime I have eaten a little something to put in my stomach along with the medication so that it can be absorbed more quickly into my bloodstream and not cause that nausea feeling. I took the medication with a full glass of water to push it down my esophagus and into my stomach, all this while I wait.
At times when I feel like I can’t wait for the pain medication to take effect I will rush it along by getting my blood pumping through vigorous activity like exercise, chores- like vacuuming, something that requires exertion. Another trick I use is caffeine if the medication is in tablet form I will take it with a cup of coffee. Today it is liquid form so I expect relief any moment now. I can almost feel it coming with every deep breathe I take. Something else I do, take deep breathes to allow my heart to pump the blood where it needs to go to stop the pain. I shared all this to explain what patience means to me. It’s not just praying and waiting and not doing anything, it is doing what you can and letting God do what you can’t.
My favorite God answer to the Israelites is found when they were caught at the Red Sea in Exodus 14:13-15 But Moses told the people, “Don’t be afraid. Just stand still and watch the LORD rescue you today. The Egyptians you see today will never be seen again. The LORD Himself will fight for you. Just stay calm.” Then the LORD said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the people to get moving!” I misunderstood that patience means to wait. Waiting and doing nothing in the wait. Just sitting there breathing in and out and waiting on God to reach His hand down and do everything for me. But that is not the case. (By the way in the time it took me to get to this point in my blog my pain has subsided. Thank you Father for making me so wonderfully complex, your workmanship is marvelous Psalm 149:14 and might I add an efficient being.)
My initial problem started this morning when I developed a migraine. I tried to ignore the gnawing symptom of pain by distracting myself with the day’s activities. The moment I sat to write my migraine was keeping me from staying focused by blurring my vision, another symptom that said to me “Houston, we have a problem.” So I did what I knew to do about the pain not just pray it away but simply by taking pain relief to relieve my symptoms. You might misunderstand that my hope is in the medication but truthfully my hope was in the LORD who formed this body to do everything He had formed it to do. I knew the science behind medication and everything I could do on my end to make the science work for me but I can’t see what’s going on in me only He that lives in me can. I can’t instruct my body to be pain free I can only leave that to the One that lives in me can. Only He has the power to heal. Only He has the power to bandage. I can do what I know to do, but at the end of the day it is God who does it.
Look now; I myself am He! There is no other god but Me! I am the one who kills and gives life; I am the one who wounds and heals; no one can be rescued from my powerful hand! Deuteronomy 32:39
For though He wounds, He also bandages. He strikes, but His hands also heal. Job 5:18
He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. Psalm 147:3
…I will bandage the injured and strengthen the weak…Ezekiel 34:16
Come, let us return to the LORD. He has torn us to pieces; now He will heal us. He has injured us; now he will bandage our wounds. Hosea 6:1
I had read once not to let time be the reason you don’t do something, because the time will pass anyway and that has stuck with me. When God says nothing is impossible in Matthew 17:20, Mark 10:27 and Luke 1:37 it doesn’t mean it is going to happen instantly. It means that everything is possible with a little time and space and during that time there will be work required of me, I will be required to do something not just sit and wait and pray. The answer to every problem I had, every pain that needed to be healed was a little time and a little space. I figure if it took me thirty something years to walk so far off the path that God had for me than if it takes the next thirty something years to walk on the path God has for me then time is what it will take.
I was healed from a 34 year addiction to pleasing my flesh by starving the need to please my flesh year by year. Yes I prayed but I also did not feed my flesh multiple times a day, every week, several times a month like I had done for the last 34 years of my life. I waited patiently by putting my trust in God to remove the urge. Every time I had a craving to feed my flesh, I fed my hunger and thirst with His Word. I am still hungry and thirsty but for His Word now.
Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for Him to act. Psalm 37:7
We did not become debt free in the three and a half years we planned to be, we became debt free in the 14 months of waiting to be. We did not simply pray our debt to disappear we learned to stop spending more than we made and started saving more than we spent. God gave us the wisdom and self-control it took to pay off the debt. He also revealed to us hidden treasures we hadn’t calculated or seen till we made the commitment to be debt free. The debt was both the Egyptians and the Red Sea because we couldn’t see how we could keep our head above water and pay off our debt at the same time and God said “What are you waiting on me for? Keep moving!” For years the obvious solution was right in front of us but we weren’t willing to take the time to solve it, we wanted it instantly.
I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from Him. Psalm 62:1
When H was healed from his traumatic brain injury, it was the prayers of people believing that his body could and would heal itself. While he was in a coma the only thing he could do was sleep and that is what any injury takes to heal the body it takes time to rest. As soon as he was able God gave him the wisdom to continue to sleep 8 hours a day and take naps so that his brain could continue the healing process. God gave him the self-discipline to drink half his body weight in water so that his body could operate efficiently without being hindered by something as unnoticeable as dehydration.
God gave him the strength and determination to exercise his body physically while calling out Scriptures to believe God was able to heal him from the inside out. He watched teachings daily so that he would be able to build up his endurance and go the distance he needed to go each day in order to get back to where he was. He exercised his brain daily performing mental puzzles, completing workbooks, doing mind game apps on his phone and took quizzes that required him to think differently. He fell from a roof head first onto a concrete driveway Dec 5th started therapy toward recovery Jan 5th medication free and returned to work April 1st.
Yet I am confident I will see the LORD’s goodness while I am here in the land of the living. Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD. Psalm 27:13-14
And now our most recent time of waiting on God is with our relationship. Why is bravery and courage needed if you aren’t expected to do something that will require you to be brave and strong because the truth is half the time I don’t know if everything I do will give me the outcome I am waiting patiently for. He has shown me that His will for my life is better than my will. If He wants me to be healed I will be healed. If He wants me to wait on Him I have no choice but to wait on Him, looking to Him in the wait. If He wants me to do something then my plan will succeed.
This has taken more patience in me to wait on God than any fruit of the Spirit has before. Including the time I didn’t know when H would be awakened from his coma (21 days not the 3-4 I was told). But God has given me all these previous examples of His faithfulness when God was able to do the impossible so time is all I have. The longest prayer I ever prayed took 25 years to be answered so trust me I have gotten good at waiting. In this time I am not just praying and waiting and doing nothing for God to rebuild us. We are sharing our views on the devotionals we read together, watch teachings together, praying together, waiting together for God to do a work within us Ephesians 3:20 that we know we can’t do on our own.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him alone. Psalm 62:5