|Posted on July 21, 2019 at 10:25 AM|
These things happened to them as examples for us. They were written down to warn us who live at the end of the age. 1 Corinthians 10:11
The other day I shared with a few close friends what I had done and the consequence of my actions. I shared with them so that God could use what was meant to cause me harm carry the guilt, the shame, the condemnation for a foolish thing for the purpose of what is good if just to be an example of what not to do because in the end it is not worth it. Even if it was something painful, something I was ashamed to admit, it was something I went through but not without purpose. I believe the purpose of me going through it and suffering the loss was to warn them so they wouldn’t sell themselves over to the same pit I fell into. I wanted them to have a real life example of how I believe God worked in my situation. There has yet to be a day for my sins that I didn’t suffer a consequence for even if I didn’t see it happen right away “my Father is always watching” Job 24:23.
My life has been an example to many because You have been my strength and protection. Psalm 71:7
There was a time I was a good listener. In other words I allowed people to share their life with me but I remained quiet. Ashamed of my past and who I was. I would rather listen to others go on about their lives than to share what was happening in my own for fear I might accidently say too much. I believed the lie that if it was enough to make me blush it was enough for others to look down on me in shame. So I listened. I smiled and I nodded as though I had nothing to say, hiding well the life I lived behind closed doors when no one was looking.
At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. Genesis 3:7
Before my ancestors felt shame they were naked and unashamed. The same was for me. Shame caused me to hide. Hide my truth. Hide who I was. Pretend to be someone I was not. And when they sinned and heard God walking in the garden they hid from Him because they were naked and afraid. Their truth was exposed. They saw themselves naked and they felt naked causing them to feel shame. Nowadays if anything happens to me good or bad I share it. I tell someone I let the people in my life share my life so that I am accountable to this journey. I don’t want to live in hiding, ashamed anymore. The only shame in hiding in not living an truthful life then what is life for if not to be lived in truth. My brother was not a private man he shared his life with anyone that was willing to listen.
I have given you an example to follow. Do as I have done to you. John 13:15
My life may not be biblical. I may not always get it right. You may not be able to quote what I say in stone but it is truth it is my truth and God knew the kind of truth it would be even if at time it got messy. It is real whether I share with many or with few. It does not go unnoticed it is not hidden anymore. Like the Word itself it serves as an example of both the good and bad. I am not here to give an example of a perfect life my brother already did that. My life is to be an example of how an imperfect life is being perfected in Christ. An example from my everyday life. It’s not pretty and there are times people will say I would never, well good for you I hope you don’t have to go through the things I went through but as for me God chose a different path, there was a time I thought I would never too but it turns out I did.
But God has mercy on me so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life. 1 Timothy 1:16